Friday, December 17, 2010

The pressure's on

For a few years now, Tim and I have felt a sense of homelessness.  We felt it even when we were still living in the duplex.  It never truly felt like home and we never really settled in b/c we knew we would be moving on from there shortly.  The places we have lived over that past few years have always felt transitional, especially as we were prepared our hearts to receive Senegal as home.

Here we are, on the cusp of moving into a real home, a place that will be ours, where we can raise our boys and settle in.  The mere thought of that reality truly overwhelms my heart.  I want to settle in and cultivate a home my family so badly I can taste it.

Yet almost from the moment our offer was accepted and the purchase agreement signed, the enemy has been trying very hard to steal our joy in this process.  The hits just keep on coming, from stressful family situations to major health insurance problems to hefty car repairs.  All with Christmas and Jackson's 2nd birthday around the corner as well!

I don't think it's any coincidence that as we are ready to launch into an exciting new season of our life together, Tim and I are struggling to make sense of some of our circumstances.  The Lord was faithful to remind me this afternoon that it was He who established the earth and it is He who sustains us.  Who do I trust in, my bank account or my Savior?  I can't control any of these situations and quite frankly, I feel very out of control and powerless these days.  But He is faithful and He will be faithful to us and will provide all that we need.    

We have a friend who often says that God makes the man before He makes the ministry.  We may have stayed home from the mission field, but we are still living in expectation of a powerful and annointed ministry.  So, it looks like God is "making us" into what we need to be b/c it sure feels like the fire is being turned up a notch.  Praise be to God!

1 comment:

Tommy O said...

My Utmost For His Highest by Oswald Chambers - December 18th.


"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God." Romans 8:28

It is only the loyal soul who believes that God engineers circumstances. We take such liberty with our circumstances, we do not believe God engineers them, although we say we do; we treat the things that happen as if they were engineered by men. To be faithful in every circumstance means that we have only one loyalty, and that is to our Lord. Suddenly God breaks up a particular set of circumstances, and the realization comes that we have been disloyal to Him by not recognizing that He had ordered them; we never saw what He was after, and that particular thing will never be repeated all the days of our life. The test of loyalty always comes just there. If we learn to worship God in the trying circumstances, He will alter them in two seconds when He chooses.

Loyalty to Jesus Christ is the thing that we "stick at" to-day. We will be loyal to work, to service, to anything, but do not ask us to be loyal to Jesus Christ. Many Christians are intensely impatient of talking about loyalty to Jesus. Our Lord is dethroned more emphatically by Christian workers than by the world. God is made a machine for blessing men, and Jesus Christ is made a Worker among workers.

The idea is not that we do work for God, but that we are so loyal to Him that He can do His work through us - "I reckon on you for extreme service, with no complaining on your part and no explanation on Mine." God wants to use us as He used His own Son.