We had a quick (and yummy) dinner with some Youthworks friends tonight (thanks Kari and roomates!) and now Tim is at Park Avenue to hear auther Ron Sider speak. So I am taking a few moments before I dig into some homework to reflect on the week.
This has been an extremely rough week for me. Lots of homework, some family stuff and a few commitments in the midst of some severe headaches. At some point this week, I realized that I have been living each day in survival mode. Just trying to get through the day, the week, the month, etc. When I get up in the morning, my first thought is ok, I just need to get to work and make it through my shift, then I can close my eyes and rub my temples.
Well, as I began to think about this pattern of "functioning," I could see it for what it really is, a way that I was working in my own strength and giving up my joy b/c of the trial of my circumstance.
I'm not very good at asking for help, but I need some help right now. Please pray for me. Pray that God would strengthen me and give me what I need to "show up" for my life right now. To get out of bed in the morning and go to work. And to praise Him for His goodness to me. This week has been a heady (no pun intended) reminder that I am still in a battle. I know who wins, but I could use some reinforcements right about now.